Immediately after completing the application and purchase process I regretted it. I know, I know, there’s no harm in getting help, but I can’t help feeling like I am cheating, taking a shortcut that I don’t need to take. To me it feels like I have paid out a lot of money that could be better spent on something else, just to make it easier to undo the mess I got myself into. I partly got myself into this situation by being lazy, and now I am paying so that I can be lazy. It just doesn’t sit right with me. Like I’ve said before, I know full well there are people that desperately need medical assistance to lose weight, I’m not one of those people, I know what to and what not to eat, and whilst my knees and the weight make being active difficult it is only going to get better by being active. Oh well, it is done now, and unless I plan on pouring it down the sink then I’m in this now.
Being perfectly honest, I nearly didn’t complete the application process. There was a LONG form/questionnaire to complete, I had to take a bunch of pictures of myself, and at every step I felt like just closing the site and forgetting about it. I understand why they need to be so thorough, but there must be a better way. Anyway, eventually the application was complete, or so I thought. Now I had to wait for a “consultation”, but before that I had to contact my GP to give consent for the online pharmacy to access my records, and whilst waiting for the GP consent to clear I had to provide screenshots of my recent medical history, It felt like a never ending list of requests and I kept wondering why I had to waste my time with the questionnaire because every question answered on there was asked again.
I started this process on a Friday, I thought early enough in the day but clearly I was wrong. Unfortunately the Saturday came and went without any joy, and the Monday was a bank holiday so yet again nothing. On Tueday the back and forth emails began, I would get one, reply immediately, then wait an hour or so for a reply. I was seriously starting to get frustrated, now that the decision had been made to get it I just wanted to get it! I was asked to have a video consultation late on Tuesday but I could as we had plans, I offered another time but didn’t get a reply. More frustration. Finally late on Wednesday I get to have the all important video consultation which is necessary before they will fulfill the order. I say consultation purely because that is what they call it. It is more of a sales pitch, which I don’t get because they’ve already got my money, then there are a few very basic instructions. I’m sure they’re just covering their own arses, they have to provide safety information to the lowest common denominator (dumbass) but I can’t help but be annoyed that this is what I’ve been waiting for, this is why I haven’t got the jab yet.
Knowing that in all likelihood I would be having the jab for at least a few months, which meant it would probably be a few months of not eating a lot of my favourite things, even as a rare treat, given the side effects and the way people I know have suffered when eating less than nutritious foods. So, I have a plan, once I had placed the order I decided I was going to completely relax the diet until the jab arrived, assuming it would take a day or two. I was going to eat all the naughty things that I would normally be tempted by to get them out of the way and draw a line under them for the foreseeable. We went to Urban and had the worlds best chicken burger. We went to pizza hut and had the all you can eat buffet. We had some sweets and chocolate when we went to the theatre, and we had a really yummy apple crumble cake (with custard) from Lidl. Admittedly when I decided to have some guilty pleasures I didn’t expect it to take a damn week for the jab to arrive so I ended up going off the rails more than I intended to, but on the plus side, I enjoyed a bunch of really yummy food and got a lot of cravings out of the way because I knew if I didn’t then the second I did the first jab my mind would be racing with all the food that I want that I can’t have. So I have definitely put some weight on whilst waiting for the jab, but I don’t feel guilty at all, it was worth it and I’m sure in the long run it will have helped me mentally. Now it’s time for the first jab and whatever lies ahead.