For as long as man has been worried about carrying excess weight there has been another man offering a magic pill to easily lose that weight. You don’t even have to go down a dark alley or on the dark web to find them, just pop into your local Holland and Barrett or any other health food/supplement store and you’ll see the shelves are crammed full of a million different products claiming to help with weight loss. There are appetite suppressors, metabolism boosters, fat burners, fat binders, and basically anything else you can think of. I’ll admit that I have tried a few different things, and never really had any results. Apparently the skinny jab is different though, there are people claiming it works miracles, there are people that I know personally who have the jab and are dropping incredible numbers, so maybe this is finally the one that isn’t just magic beans.
Do I want to take it though? Honestly, I get that everyones circumstance is difference, but there is no reason why I should need it. Weight loss is all about eating fewer calories than you burn. I have the means ans ability to eat healthily. I have the means and ability to exercise. It should be that simple, and in reality it is, I have lost a whole bunch of weight already by restricting my calories and increasing my exercise. There is one thing I can’t control though and that is my appetite, feeling hungry. I’m not going to be dramatic and say I am always starving because I am not, but there are definitely times that I want to eat, or actually times that I am eating when I really shouldn’t be, or I’m having 2 sandwiches instead of 1, I’m eating half a pack of sausages just because I would rather not have an open pack in the fridge, I’m eating more bread than I should just because I bought a pack of bagels or thins to have one or two and I don’t want the rest to go to waste. I’ve tried taking “hunga killa” supplements, they don’t help. I’ve tried upping my fibre intake, starting early in the day with good cereal rather than essentially a bowl of sugar, it doesn’t help. I’m trying to drink more. Everything I am trying isn’t helping, I’m still hungry more often than not and it is making it difficult to make the right decision. Did I need to have a chippy when we went to the seaside? No, but I was hungry and it was the easiest option. The whole thing about the skinny jab, and when I say skinny jab I am specifically talking about Mounjaro, is that it works by reducing your appetite and making you feel fuller for longer, or fuller easier, which is exactly what I need. So yes, I do want to take it.
BUT
I don’t want to take it. I spent a hell of a lot of money on takeaways and snacks to get myself into this mess, I am spending a lot of money now to go to the gym and eat healtily to try and get myself out of this mess. A lot of people have made a lot of money off of me being fat, I really don’t want to make anyone else rich. It would be one thing if it was an insignificant amount of money, but for six months it would work out to £900 which is definitely not an insignificant amount of money.
On top of the money issues, there’s the fact that I just don’t want to do it, I want to be able to lose the weight on my own without taking any shortcuts. I got into this situation because I’m not good with self control when it comes to food, so I need to go through the process of learning better habits and I won’t do that by taking shortcuts. Also, what happens when you stop taking it? Not being funny but I am not going to get to my target by using it, if I did 6 months I’m still going to have a long way to go and what is going to happen to my appetite and my metabolism when I don’t have that crutch keeping things in check? Am I suddeny going to put a load of weight back on? Will I be back to struggling with appetite and not feeling full? I really would rather just do it myself.
BUT
I keep going back and forth on it, I want the benefits of it, of course I do, but I have concerns. I’ve looked at the different options, and I really am struggling to make a decision. It is such a lot of money, and I really do want to be able to do this the normal way of eat less and exercise more, but I can’t deny that having some help would be amazing, if I can do something to help drop the weight quicker it will make doing things easier, it will make being active easier, it will mean stepping on the scales isn’t so depressing, catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror won’t be so depressing, I might even be able to fit into clothes that I am desperate to fit into, football shirts that have been bought as a present that I haven’t been able to wear. But but but.
A little while later…
Sod it. It’s done (yes, I’ve been writing this throughout the day). I have filled in the necessary forms, I have given the necessary consent, and I have placed an order. Now I am just waiting for everything to be processed and to see if there is a consultation needed or what. Either way, the order is for one months worth, after that I’ll see if I want to go for another month. I think realitically I need to give it 2 months to see how I get on with it after the initial boost. I’m not exactly happy about this, I’m annoyed at myself, hopefully it will be worth it.