As any recovering fatty will tell you, it is all too easy to succomb to life, and other distractions. I mention this because it is exactly what is happening right now. After having a holiday, then getting back on the diet for a few days, life is again getting in the way. With it being the long Easter weekend we are travelling across country to visit my family for a couple of days. Then when we are home it is Vikki’s mum’s birthday, which means a birthday dinner. I have pretty much no control over what I eat this weekend.
When you have no control over what you eat it becomes really difficult to track your calories. I mean, it could be done, but would you want to hassle the person who is cooking for you to find out what the calories of eveything is, what your portion is, etc? I know you could, but I would rather not bother them. Maybe that is something I need to work on, I’m trying to better myself, that shouldn’t be an inconvenience for people. Whether you are counting calories or not, sometimes a meal that someone else has prepared is going to be bad news for the diet, no matter what you do, there are just some meals that are nearly impossible to eat any sensible portion whilst sticking to a low calorie budget. Tell me what sort of budget I’m supposed to stick to with roast potatoes and stuffing on my plate…
Along with the travelling and visiting family, eating out or eating a meal someone else has prepared is the least of the problems. The wise among us know that Easter is dangerous for one reason… Easter means Easter eggs. With the eggs comes the dilemma, spread them out, a bit at a time, or binge them and get them out of the way quickly. Personally I prefer the binge, eat them, enjoy them, get them over and done with so that I can get back on track. The calories are exactly the same, but I would rather one or two very bad days than ten slightly bad days. I would love to know if there is one way or another that is better. I guess if I spread it out then that would be my snack for the day, whereas bingeing it in a few days, the following days I’m probably still going to have a snack, so I’ve had the egg plus snacks. I don’t know, mentally I feel better about it by getting it out of the way quickly rather than dragging it out.
I think one of my problems is I’m still seeing this journey as a diet, it isn’t just life, which means it can be derailed and interrupted. I need to start seeing it as just life, where sometimes I have to fit things into it, and adapt. For example, I’ve got plenty of exercise equipment that I could have taken away with me for the weekend to make sure I get some sort of workout, but did I? Did I buggery. Instead of adapting my life and adapting my workout, I just ignored it. The same with what I eat, I don’t know what the option is, but I know I can do better when not at home, maybe I need to offer to get the groceries in and cook myself so that I am still in control. Maybe my problem right now is that it is all too easy to give in to distractions and go completely off the rails, rather than doing what I can to stick to the plan. I’m sure I’m not the only one who struggles with this, but I need to find a workable solution because looking at the diary terrifies me at the moment with that amount of weekends away or days out we have coming up. At this rate I won’t be at 400lbs by the time I’m 40, let alone be anywhere near my goal.
The question is what do I now? I should be weighing myself on Monday, but it would be completely pointless too and I worry it would just depress me. I think what I should aim for is being extra strict this coming week, trying to counteract the weekend, then weigh myself next Monday, which is the day before my birthday, so I’ll know then whether I have said goodbye to the 400’s before my birthday or not. Time to learn how to cope with life and other distractions.
P.S. For anyone curious, we had Easter eggs from TheChocolateSmiths and they were amazing, Toffee Mallow, and Golden Caramel. We also have a birthday cake egg on the way at some point, which maybe we’ll use as my birthday cake if it arrives on time.